Sometimes...

Sometimes I just want to say I quit. Life's too hard. If you need me, I'll be in my couch fort coloring. Sometimes I want to go back to the days when I drank Kool-aid from a baby bottle and ran around outside like I didnt have a care in the world. Sometimes.

Well, This Is Awkward...

A few days ago, I got an e-mail about my old blog, The Random Ramblings of a Teenage Girl. It has been forever since I thought about that blog. And someone had commented on an old post. Guess what the post was about? Breaking up with Jake. Yeah. Someone somewhere took the time to read through my archives and give me some inspiration. That person told me to stay strong. And you know what, I am strong.

I read through that old blog of mine. It chronicalized my relationship with Jake back then. We went through ups and downs and trials and heartaches. We went through a lot. And right there in black and white, I told myself I wouldn't let him break my heart again. Well you know what? He did. But I'm stronger for it. I'm realizing that I have to do things for myself, Not for him. I'm realizing that I have the strength to fight and to live my life the way that I want to. No matter what he says, or what anyone says.

I'm going to school now. I'm going for human services at Kaplan Univirsity. Its been about two weeks, and my grades are pretty good. I have another week in the trial period, just to see if I can do it. But you know what? I think I can. No matter what anyone else thinks. I know I can do this.

Work has been about the same. I have my up days and down days, but right now my main priority is School.

I'm going to try to blog more often. Somehow, I think it will help.

Life

Its noon and while most people are on their lunch break, I'm going to bed. Why? because I work third shift.

Working third shift really screws with you. When you're awake, the world is asleep. The things that need to be done cant get done until 7 or 8 in the morning, such as going to the bank or even the grocery store. You feel like your life is on hold when you work 3rd, and even on your days off things dont get done properly because you stil need to conform to the sleep schedule.

Thought of the day, I suppose.

2013

Lots and lots of things have happened since my last post. Though I highly doubt anyone even reads this blog, one of my resolutions is to start blogging again. So, here it goes.

Jake broke up with me. It was a couple of months after I lost my job at Tri-Mark. I was depressed, and I guess he just couldn't handle it anymore. So, I'm now living with Rolene and Paul and their son Sam. Rolene owns Mother of Purl, a yarn shop that opened up in town over the summer. I became fast firends and she was the one that I turned to when....everything happened.

I started working again. I work at Walmart now, as an over night associate stocking shelves. Its not ideal and the pay sucks, but its something for right now.

I also went and got myself a car. I took out a loan for 1100 and got a '99 Oldsmobile Allero. It runs great and we take it to work every day. I'm paying off the loan slowly, though that reminds me I need to talk to my bank.

Wow, Its Been Awhile....

Well, it sure has been awhile since I posted. December? 7 months....lets see whats been going on....

Well, up until the end of April i had been working for Caseys General Store, a gas station/pizza place that I enjoyed. But, they wouldnt give me full time so on a whim I put in applications for both McDonalds and Trimark Corp. I got into both. With three jobs I wasnt really able to do much, so I quit McDonalds and Caseys in hopes that I would get hired on full time at Trimark.

See, I was employed through a temp agency to Trimark. I still worked 40+ hours per week, but I was not company so I didn't get the benefits, but I still worked like hell. Well, up until Monday morning, everything was hunky dory and I thought I was going to get hired on full time.


Yeah, right.

I got the phone call from the Labor Ready office at like 2pm on Monday, saying that Trimark did not want me to go back to work. I was floored. I had been working there for almost 4 months, and then suddenly they didnt want me back? Why?

Apparently, according to the big wigs, tey were doing 'cutbacks' and 'rethinking their temporary workers'. Which, in my opinion, was total and utter bullshit because just a month ago they had run a big campeign to get MORE workers into their factory.

So, I'm jobless. For now, at least. I'm sure that I'll find something, but its really hard not to sink into a depression worth writing about. For now, though, I've got spaghetti on the stove. 

25 Ornaments Of Christmas 4

All right, so after a hellish day at work (about 105 pizzas, 25 subs, and lots of short tempers) I come home and colapsed on the couch. The computer decided that it was going to be picky and evil, so for about 2 hours I had to baby it through a few steps of rebuts and try to find where my crafty stuff went. Then I finally realized: I still have to make an ornament! -.- Crafgawker, here I come!

I found this wounferful tutorial on ow to make a woven paper ball. Just yesterday I had run out of work early in order to make it to Pamida to get cardstock and clear bulbs. Still not too sure what to do with the bulbs, but i think I'll figure it out sooner rather than later ;)

Anyway, back to the ball.

Sorry for the bad lighting, I didn't use the good camera because well I'm lazy and I grabbed the nearest one to me. I think I'm going to have to attempt this one again sometime. The Cheese Thief made some amazing videos and a really easy to follow tutorial. My ball, however, is rather deformed because 1. I cut paper that was WAAAAY too wide 2. Its almost 4 am and I'm really tierd and 3. My paitence is running rather thin and I dont feel like trying to figure this out AGAIN.

Anyway, I think I'm going to go colapse into bed. Night all!

So

My New Projects

Tis the season for overspending, undereating, long road trips, and snow. Oh, and decorations. Which is what brings me to this post

I have decided that for this year ( mostly because we're broke) I am going to craft the decorations for my tree. We got the tree itself from a little shop called the Treasure Chest for $4 and the previous tennents left a bunch of lights and decorations in the basement. I have utalized a bunch of them but I refuse to color code my tree in blue. So, as a result, the 25 days of Ornaments has been born.

Days 1, 2, and 3 are all smashed together.  So, without further adu, here we go.

1. My very first Sculpy project, Christmas Kitty. I used a whole block of black clay (well except for like 3 pieces) and got my idea from Youtube. I may attempt the actual tutorial for my next project, but for now I like it. For the most part it turned out well.

2.This was my second attempt with polymer clay, otherwise known as Sculpy. Mostly I just used remanents from the kitty and made a spiral. The white dyed itself pink-ish from my fingers but it turned out ok. This may be one that i might want to attempt later on with the proper tools, but for now it looks nice just where it is.

3. Last but not least, a lazy charm. I call it lazy because all I did was take some of the wool that I had laying around and made a yarn ball. I think it acutally looks really nice because of the color combos. I got the idea from this tutorial, which called for a Styrofoam core. I of course dont have any styrofoam, but I do have lots of yarn that I really dont mind using for a ball or two.

So there we have it, the first of many DIY  holiday ornaments. I'm going to try to post them every day, but if I miss a couple I dont think anyone will mind. Its not like anyone actually reads this thing anyway....(yeah, I'm feeling a bit down)