Sometimes...

Sometimes I just want to say I quit. Life's too hard. If you need me, I'll be in my couch fort coloring. Sometimes I want to go back to the days when I drank Kool-aid from a baby bottle and ran around outside like I didnt have a care in the world. Sometimes.

Well, This Is Awkward...

A few days ago, I got an e-mail about my old blog, The Random Ramblings of a Teenage Girl. It has been forever since I thought about that blog. And someone had commented on an old post. Guess what the post was about? Breaking up with Jake. Yeah. Someone somewhere took the time to read through my archives and give me some inspiration. That person told me to stay strong. And you know what, I am strong.

I read through that old blog of mine. It chronicalized my relationship with Jake back then. We went through ups and downs and trials and heartaches. We went through a lot. And right there in black and white, I told myself I wouldn't let him break my heart again. Well you know what? He did. But I'm stronger for it. I'm realizing that I have to do things for myself, Not for him. I'm realizing that I have the strength to fight and to live my life the way that I want to. No matter what he says, or what anyone says.

I'm going to school now. I'm going for human services at Kaplan Univirsity. Its been about two weeks, and my grades are pretty good. I have another week in the trial period, just to see if I can do it. But you know what? I think I can. No matter what anyone else thinks. I know I can do this.

Work has been about the same. I have my up days and down days, but right now my main priority is School.

I'm going to try to blog more often. Somehow, I think it will help.

Life

Its noon and while most people are on their lunch break, I'm going to bed. Why? because I work third shift.

Working third shift really screws with you. When you're awake, the world is asleep. The things that need to be done cant get done until 7 or 8 in the morning, such as going to the bank or even the grocery store. You feel like your life is on hold when you work 3rd, and even on your days off things dont get done properly because you stil need to conform to the sleep schedule.

Thought of the day, I suppose.

2013

Lots and lots of things have happened since my last post. Though I highly doubt anyone even reads this blog, one of my resolutions is to start blogging again. So, here it goes.

Jake broke up with me. It was a couple of months after I lost my job at Tri-Mark. I was depressed, and I guess he just couldn't handle it anymore. So, I'm now living with Rolene and Paul and their son Sam. Rolene owns Mother of Purl, a yarn shop that opened up in town over the summer. I became fast firends and she was the one that I turned to when....everything happened.

I started working again. I work at Walmart now, as an over night associate stocking shelves. Its not ideal and the pay sucks, but its something for right now.

I also went and got myself a car. I took out a loan for 1100 and got a '99 Oldsmobile Allero. It runs great and we take it to work every day. I'm paying off the loan slowly, though that reminds me I need to talk to my bank.